Monday, October 28, 2013

I Love You

..Words would never be able to describe how I felt last Monday when I received your package.  I want you to know from the bottom of my heart how much that meant to me.  I went to the Post Office to pick it up and I thought it was gonna be this little package on the shelf, but instead she bent down and picked up this massive box from the ground and I was completely speechless.  I was just stunned.  Part of me immediately felt bad about how expensive that must have been and I was just in the weird shock mode.  Well, I went to my apartment and opened it... Mom.  I love you so much.  Thank you so much for everything.  I couldn't even go through it for about twenty minutes.  I just opened the box and cried.  I just sat there are cried, and cried, and cried.  I have never felt so overwhelmed in my entire life.  I was overcome with such a strong love.  It didn't have anything to do with the stuff that you sent or the things that you wrote me.  I just felt SO much love from each of you and I felt like there was someone out there who heard me and cared and loves me. A song that you sent says, "if your out on the road, feeling lonely and so cold, all you have to do is call my name and i'll be there.." Well... I wrote you a couple weeks ago that I was struggling and that I was lonely and what did you do? You heard my call and you came.  You were there. You were here, and I love you so much for it.  Thank you so much. I honestly have never been so overwhelmed with love in my entire life.  I could not even function. I love the music! Thank you!  this is super corny, but the song "Make You Feel My Love," was like my mom and dad were singing it directly to me.  It was so overwhelming and I can't express enough how grateful I am for all of you.  As soon as I saw Tara's handwriting I just cried more.  and that card.. Sadie's paw print hahah.. Oskar's promise to me.. the yo-yo.. Oh my gosh the clothes! I love them! Thank you so much! After I managed to stop sobbing, I just relished in my clothes. I mixed and matched and organized and I spent like all afternoon trying them on and pretending Mollie was there and I would show her how they looked.  Thank you so much! Those few hours were the happiest moments in my entire life. I will never forget them.  I just felt like Jaynanne. I felt like myself and it was so refreshing to be myself for a few minutes and not this missionary who has to know everything and be strong all the time and on top of things.  I was just me and only me.  I just knew that everything was going to be ok after that.  That I would be able to get through anything.  That no matter what happen or what challenges came my way, I would be able to face them because I have such amazing support and love from all of you.  I love you all so much.  Thank you for not forgetting about me.  Thank you for all the music!  It's been playing non stop.  and the oils and socks! thank you! I wish you understood how you made me feel.  I feel very blessed.

The rest of the week was good.  We had Zone Conference with President and Sister Tilleman and that went well.  President was like, "how long have you been here?" I was like, "I hit my eight month mark on Sunday." he was like, "No, how long have you been in this area?" I just looked at him and was like, "this is my first area." he just leaned back and was like WoW.  It was one of those moments where you shake your hand infront of someones face and they don't see it ya know?! haha so yeah..  on Friday, there were 12 companionship's that went to Abbotsford where all the Laurels and Priests in the Providence were at this conference and we acted as their Zone Leaders for the Day and went around to all these workshops.  It was really fun!  

A huge highlight of the week was going to  The temple With Karen.  It was so spiritual.  She looked so pretty and Pure in her white.  It was such a special experience that I will never forget.  For the first time ever, when they prayed for the missionaries, I felt it.  I felt the power.  I felt the faith and prayers of the Members.  I felt like I was one of those missionaries they were praying for.  I am so happy I got to go to the Temple with Karen.  On Wednesday, we met at the temple with Karen to go on splits and she was telling me that her mom who has been inactive for Twenty five years saw the example Karen was setting and she has decided to come back to church and take the Temple lessons and be sealed to her husband and Karen for time and All eternity.  I was soooooo happy! I was like "KAREN! do you see what an impact your decision to go to the temple has made on your family!?"  and than she just burst into tears and said, "No Sister Petersen, this is all happening because of you." and than she just cried.  It was so tender.  The temple was behind her and it was beautiful moment. I love her! I am so grateful that I was able to help.  I don't really feel like I did that much.  ha.  But hugging her in the Celestial room was special. I was all anxious and nervous haha and I know it is going to be like that in Heaven.  

Well, I love you all.  Hope you all have a great week.  
Remember the Small and Simple things! 
Be strong and of Good Courage. 
keep calm and preach the gospel! 
five stars! 1-10-15 Long Live! 3-2-1! 
WORK iTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :)

1 comment:

  1. Brad and Loretta just LOVE a certain person who truly does
    'work it'. She is a blessing.